A Letter To You

(It took me 8 days to write this letter, joining parts and bringing them together. Sorry to be out of touch)


Dear,
    This one is my first letter to you. I do not know even if I have the right to call you 'dear', but, let us build on with it; at least for this letter. This letter is not just a love letter. This letter is recollection of my memoir, the way I had been and the way I am now. I don’t know that if you even care, but, yes, I know you will definitely run your eyes through these words after getting this letter.

    You might have known when this all begun right? Right from the day you promised our friendship would never end. My hands were wrapped around yours, it was pitch dark, but I could still feel the warmth of your heart and see the smile of yours. No wonder that was the best evening with you. Days passed, I grasping your hand and walking back home, oh those days were wonderful.

    But the way I am getting the things now, I feel I was just too dumb. I should have understood long back, I were mere guy, just a commoner in your life; you have may others in your life who were no different than me. I should have known that my position in your list was no better than any other guy around you (could be below too). I must have known, nothing of mine bothers you.

    Oh lord how I could not see that. How could I have forgotten that you love another guy? How could I have forgotten that you have had dreams, dreams with him in those? How could I have ignored the fact that my existence was unnecessary in your life? How could I have unseen that I had already grown Un-Important to you?
   
    My bad. Yes it's my bad I could not see you would never care for me. It's my bad I wanted the warmth of your heart. Yes, I know, it's my bad that you would not love me.

    I fell for you since then, and I have still not been able to pick myself up. My eyes always seeks for your eyes, those beautiful ones under the spectacles. I love the raven black hair of yours, with a tint of red. My ears long to hear you, for your giggle is my favourite melody. I know you love him. I know your heart is with him. But I want to be there in your heart, just even once, to know how it feels to be loved. I know you love him, but I still want you to be there.

    It's not reasonable, and I know it. But I am speaking this, because, I love you and no conditions apply.

Yours always,
Yugantar.


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